My life has been pretty hectic for the past couple of months or so ( Read more... )

Recently, I've come to the realization that, through the course of my development, I never really had a constructive method of dealing with my problems. When I was in middle school, I pretended to be happy because I was embarrassed to feel any other way. When I was in high school, I dealt with my demons by sobbing, cutting and depriving myself of ( Read more... )

So much as been going on in my head ( Read more... )

-- I removed the friend's boyfriend. I am not going to try to debate with someone who is unwavering in their negativity and doesn't show respect to me. He is rude, and I do not deal well with people who lack manners. I have tried so hard to refrain from commenting on her statuses that he has made it a point to clutter up with his narrow-minded, ( Read more... )

I think the fact that I care about very different things in my life is somewhat frightening to me. I’ve done a considerable amount of changing this past year. By not caring for the petty things that used to bother me endlessly, I find myself feeling less than myself. It is amazing how something so positive can seem so negative ( Read more... )

It feels odd to me to be in the position that I am right now. To know that this is the last 3:30 A.M. I'll be at the Upshur County group home. To know that after 7 A.M., I will no longer be an employee of Home Base ( Read more... )

I find myself creating hardships for myself when I grow restless or bored of the existence I’ve created for myself. I’ve always done it at least subconsciously. A part of me just wants a distraction, while feeling the need to struggle -- the oppressed spirit is a feeling spirit. Truth be told, I feel the most like myself when I’m feeling sorrow ( Read more... )

I have been really down on myself lately. A lot of it is stemming from PMS, I'm sure, but there are other factors that have been weighing heavy on me. There's the stress and the weight gain from depression/quitting smoking (though I have it under control). There is the constant war inside my head to try to feel "normal" again. For the past 11 ( Read more... )

I have been feeling rather down about my weight lately. It isn't that I look thicker to other people. Actually, it almost every way I look thinner. But I know what the scale says, and I know that I have to avoid half of my pants right now. This is probably the backlash from quitting smoking, and not much more. I still have been working out 3-4 ( Read more... )

Let it be known that this is the morning of muffins! Not for me, though. Probably eggs for me if I don't go home and collapse immediately ( Read more... )